Day #3

I don't wish upon anyone the feeling I got in the pit of my stomach when i thought that, for the next 2 months, i would have to spend 6 hours of my day driving without any music. No Ipod, radio...nothing!

The radio on my bus was on the fritz today, and, being in the habit of listening to either my aptly-compiled and named 'Bus' playlists on my Ipod or the entirety of Barb Abney and Mary Lucia's shows on The Current, I sank into an uncontrollable state of dazed indifference without the white noise of indie music; not a good state of mind to be in while performing a job that puts you behind the wheel of a screeching, yellow caravan of death.

Fortunately, after mindlessly fidgeting with the knobs and placement of the radio itself, i eventually got it to work again. I've never been so happy in my life to hear The Fray. Unfortunately, it's not a very reliable piece of technology, and the only way i can tune into The Current is to drive by MPR on Cedar & 7th in downtown St. Paul, quickly tune it to 89.3, and save it as a preset station. Slick, right?

When you get into such a routine, it's strange how it affects even your will to carry on in that same task when certain variables are introduced. I probably would have sooner driven my entire route on a segway if it had music, then a bus without. One could say i placed to much emphasis on a small part of the job, while others my understand the vital role music can play in a person's life. Silence can lose all of it's grandeur when it is forced upon me.

It did help me to understand how, in any case, I shouldn't really expect the expected. Life is made unique by breaks in routine, welcome or otherwise. I had to pray about that, actually. I had to be willing if God wanted to teach me something of solitude while working in the last 2 months of this school year. Maybe that wasn't specifically the case, but perhaps to learn more of myself and of God, I cant always be comfortable.

Ha...isn't that what is told to us about faith all the time? I guess it can be proven any number of ways.

David Bazan concert tonight. Pics are a possibility for next time.

(Upon reading through this again, doing my route on a segway might actually be legitimately awesome)